Oh susie, I'm so sorry
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So very sorry to hear your news :-(
Thinking of you x

Susie
I am so sorry to hear this, I was convinced that they were getting ontop of things.
wish I was closer to give you a hug
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Barbara
x

Oh I am so sorry Im sure you had little choice but heartbreaking you tried so Hard - God Bless X

Oh no, I'm so sorry for your loss, I would imagine you feel like you've been to hell & back over the past week or so.  You did the right thing, poor little boy sounded like he was in a lot of pain, he'll run free at the bridge now. Thinking of you xx

I am very sorry for your loss :-(

So very sorry to hear of your sad loss :-(

Oh no I am so sorry, you must be devastated :(

You have made the kindest yet most difficult decision for Rugby he is now out of pain, sending hugs and positive thoughts to you and your family,
Run free Rugby xx

I'm heartbroken for you Susie and praying for you and your family to have peace of heart and mind that Rugby is in a better place than us :( 

Love Teri x

I do not know what to say :(...
I'm so sorry you had to let your boy go. He is now in a better place with no pain.
Heaven has a one more Leo-angel, he will be waiting for you there.

I am so sorry for the loss of your boy , you did your best for him so very sad you had to make this decision ....but know in your heart that he is no longer suffering .

Deeply sorry R.I.P little one.

Roni

sorry to hear this :(

I am so sorry to read this, such a young age too...you have certainly given your all and tried the hardest anyone could, God Bless you for making that decision to end his suffering...so sorry...:(

Sending mega hugs to you, R.I.P Rugby

So sorry for your loss.

so very sorry,sending HUGS to all concerned

Sheila xx

Further to my last post Rugby's specialist confirmed his biopsy showed Primary Lymphangiectasia, and did his best to convince me I hadn't caused it, I couldn't have prevented it, and due to the severity earlier intervention probably wouldn't have helped.

However, I also spoke to Rugby's vet last night, the consequences of which only hit me at 3am this morning!  We were discussing his case and saying how strange it was he seemed to perk up after being on a drip.  This was simply put down to him feeling better having been rehydrated.  But there was one particular day where I was really confident he was getting better.  As it turns out he'd also had a mild steriod injection whilst on his drip.   So I'm now wondering................................................................
1 WHY DID THE VET NOT SEE THE CONNECTION AND CONTINUE TREATMENT
2 WHY DID I NOT ASK SPECIFICALLY WHAT HED BEEN GIVEN AND DEMAND THE CONTINUATION OF TREATMENT

Could it really have been so simple?  Could I have actually been getting up this morning to to see Rugby's happy face, instead of crying at a PC breaking my heart over what could've been, feeling responsible for the suffering my beautiful brave boy went through, and missing him more and more every day?  Did I really spend £6000 on unneccesary treatment? 

Hindsights a wonderful thing, and beating myself up is not going to bring Rugby back, but I don't think I can cope with the knowledge it could've been so different.  I don't really know what I expect you to say - I guess I just needed to get it out!

I did also want to tell you I am now the proud Mum of a 4 month Leo boy called Fozzie Bear, he's an absolute sweetheart (doesn't have the devil in him like Rugby did!), and I can honestly say he's the only thing that kept me going over Christmas.

Thanks to all for their support, much appreciated.
x

Hi again Susie

PIL is much like IBD in symptoms and treatment - neither are curable, at best manageable and management relies heavily on life long dietary swings and roundabouts between flare ups.  A compromised digestive system in a dog so very poorly as Rugby IMO always seemed to have a low chance of success as his state was too weakened - through nobody's fault, sadly that is the way of some diseases and conditions.

Easily said I know but please don't beat yourself up about 'what if' - had your vet genuinely felt progress was being made by the treatment Rugby was receiving he would have advised accordingly.  Rehydrating Rugby would temporarily perk him up but on it's own this is not a cure but merely one part of treating one small part of Rugby's symptoms.  Steroids will always have their place in such types of ailments too but again, your vet would have been aware of whether they were making a significant impact and - importantly - if the impact made would be in time to save Rugby from further suffering :(

You did what you could and I know you'd have done more were it possible.  Try, hard though it is, to accept that Rugby got to the end of the road and bear in mind that you relieved your precious lad from suffering before it was too late.  No greater kindness can we afford them.

God bless, Teri

Hi Susie, congrats on your new furbie.
I read somewhere recently the following...

Do not revisit your descision, you cannot alter it now. it was the right choice at the right time and accept the fact.

have some wonderful time with the new puppy,
Chris