
Had a sort of slip today, but not really.
My mom had the ashtray right at the computer, and was having a smoke. Mom and I would always have a smoke together, as we read emails and such, and talked about all the stuff people sent us.
Well what did I do? I reached for the smoke, and it was almost in my mouth before I realized that I had the smoke in my hand. I didnt puff or anything, and when I realized it, I screamed "OMG!!!!" and slammed it back into the tray.
My sister is being the witch about it. She called me an idiot to try and quit smoking with all the stress right now. But if I dont, I wont get my voice back. I wont feel better. So, its either deal with it now, and learn, or dont do it, and not ever get better. She also blew smoke in my face, and I told her right off. Basically, I told her to get out of my house, and that if she was gonna be a jerk, I didnt want to see her for a while.
She got the message real quick.
But other than the almost slip up, it does seem to be getting easier. It also helps when you got people kinda routing you on. Some people are like "I will congratulate you when you havent smoked for a year" well poo on them. The comment is also coming from people that smoke, so I take it with a grain of salt. I am stubborn enough to stop smoking, and I am gonna do it this time.
Thanks everyone for your support!