
Hi Bev,
When you've lost one once you never feel confident about it again.....I've been there so I know how you feel. I have had bitches spayed since (not always plain sailing) but they've all survived and been fit and healthy afterwards.
I've never had one spayed before the first season; I like them to be more physically mature when they are 'done' with the uterus unaffected by hormones and with a reduced blood supply.