> only 3 weeks old but I loved him
Totally understand the rambling so no worries. I have a breed that doesn't leave home until 12 weeks. All pups were thriving and doing well. One girl was particularly tiny. Although I was keeping a bitch from the litter I decided to keep tiny tot but not for breeding. I just didn't want her to end up as a handbag dog.
Little Peanut suddenly went downhill and ended up in hospital. After a week (they let me go and sit with her for hours every day) I could see that she was not going to improve. I collected her at lunchtime and took her to bed with me. I spent a couple of hours just loving her before taking her to be given peace. I wrapped her up in my jacket and she was brought home to be buried wrapped warm in my jacket. She was 10 weeks old and I loved her so much. After losing little Peanut I have never mated a bitch up since. Too much heartbreak.