I am so very sorry.

Jean

I'm so sorry to hear this news Celli - will be thinking of you.

Claire

Thankyou for the continued thoughts x

Ben is better today on the steroids but not great, he doesn't seem to be in any pain and his breathing is a lot better, I think tomorrow will be the decider, he's still not really eating, and the short walks he's getting take a while, not sure though whether that's due to his nature, he always liked to stop and stare and would always drag his feet on the return journey.
If he's the same tomorrow I'm not sure whether I should get the vet out on Friday or wait til Monday, I know I'm just putting off the inevitable, but if he's comfortable enough should I wait til Monday ?

I think you will know when it is the right time as you clearly love your boy and will do what is right for him. Keep strong and give your lovely boy a big hug from me x

Celli,
I am so sorry to hear your news about Ben. As others say, you'll know when the time is right and of course you want as much time as you can with him, because you love him so much you'll make sure it's right for him. I guess I'd just have a back up plan if there is a change over the weekend.

The weekend is my worry, I'll just have to see how much of an improvement he makes and judge it from there.

When Celeste was dying of cancer and got to the breathless stage, steroids gave her another 2 months of very good health, you really wouldn't know there was anything wrong with her, I guess i'm expecting the same with ben, perhap's i'm expecting too much :-(

Big hugs for you and Ben, no matter how much time we have with our lovely dogs it could never be enough. xxx

I've arranged for the vet to come out this afternoon and send Ben on his way, he's comfortable enough, but there's no quality of life, he's just dragging himself from one day to the next, no life for any dog. At least his appetite has picked up, he's had flapjacks, ice cream, a fish supper, he always loved a fish supper, pan fried lambs heart, he has some steak mince for today.

I am so sorry :(.  Never a good time to have to come to these decisions but especially at this time of year.  You are doing the very best thing for him though.

Will be thinking about later this afternoon and hope he goes to sleep peacefully x

So very sorry,my thoughts are with you and Ben.

Sheila {{{hugs}}}

Thinking of you and Ben xx

I'm so sorry.
It's horrible having to make that decision, but it's a very selfless one.
I wish you strength to get through today.
xxxx

So sorry for you all, that's the downside of being an animal owner and lover, at least he will be at home with the people who love him for his final journey x

Celli, I am so sorry that you have to go through this at what should be a happy time of year, but we can only choose what's best for our lovely dog family and pray for courage to do what's right. Ben's tastes sound very like my dogs' dream meals--they go mad for fish suppers and adore apple pancakes. We will be thinking of you all this afternoon and wishing you much love and hugs this Christmas.

So very sorry for this awful choice you have had to make. Please be strong as your love for Ben means that you have done the right thing for him. I am crying for you as I write this, it is so sad yet again for the difficult choices that have been made recently on this forum.

Well, it went very smoothly, he had as nice a day as he could, given how he was feeling, we spent quite a while in Ben's Field, he and I just sitting together watching village life go by, Spud and Daisy being a pair of balloons chasing each other round us.
My friend janette arrived and gave him lots of reiki, vet came at the back of 3, Ben was let go outside, he loved being outside, the vet hadn't even given him the whole lot of the first syringe and he was gone, I just felt his big head go limp in my hands and that was it.
The vet said Ben's x rays showed about 50 small tumours through out his lungs.
He's lying in the alcove of the hall until we take him to the crematorium tomorrow morning, Ed ( OH ) suggested putting him in the car just now, but I couldn't do that to him, he hated being in the car...silly I know, but I'd rather have him with us.

I wonder if anyone can explain something ? I've just gone to stroke him ( again ) and his nose has bled, it's been nearly 3 hours since he passed, it certainly wasn't there before, what could have caused it ?.

I'm so very sorry for you , you did the right thing but it doesn't make it any easier :(

Run Free at the bridge Ben

xxx

It's quite natural, Celli.  Fluid is leaking out of his system into his lungs and his head being low down it is the natural place for it to escape.  Don't worry it is not a sign that he has suffered any trauma. 
There should'nt be a lot but you might want to rest his dear head on an old towel and it is probably better if you have him laid on something waterproof anyway as he may leak from his waterworks or bowel too.

Oh blimey tears are flowing here.

When the due the body and muscles still move and things do happen to them .

When we took Mars our first girl to the pet cemetery about three hours after she went to sleep we wrapped her in her favourite blanket for the last journey. When we got there we opened the door opened the blanket up and the contents of her stomach had come out and also some poo from the other end.

I would just clean him up which I presume you have as I am sure he will be fine as the muscles will have all stopped moving now.

Sending you my love x

Just wanted to add my condolences. It is so hard to let them go and yet we do not want them to suffer. So very sorry to your loss.
I was at the vets yesterday with a friend whose dog was diagnosed with Lymphoma two weeks ago and she was let go yesterday with mild breathing difficulties as the Lymphoma had progressed. Her passing was so quick just like with your Ben.

Alisongold, so sorry to hear that your friends dog has gone too, give her my best wishes.

He's still bleeding :-( .

Oh Celli I'm so sorry to hear Ben had passed already, what a wonderful selfless thing to do for him though and his last day sounds as perfect as you could make it. My thoughts are with you.

Just get some paper towel and put it under his head to catch any drips. He is fine just upsetting to see :-( If you haven't already done it wrap him in a blanket as that will keep him safe.

When Moose went she started bleeding from her legs and I was really upset to see it but as i was holding her i couldnt do anything but the vets wife got a load of chem wipe and put it under both legs so at least she wasn't just bleeding without anybody caring.

More buckets of tears flowing again..

My heart goes out to you and I hope your OH is giving you much support at this time.

RIP Ben xxx

If you can cover him right up so you can't see it all.. It's hard enough as it is without seeing nature take hold.. :-(

So sorry to hear about Ben. Am thinking of you at this sad time.

We had to put him in the car last night, all the blood was upsetting both Spud and I, it just wouldn't stop. Poor spud didn't want to walk past him and even once we'd taken him to the car Spud didn't want to come out of the living room.

The same happens to humans when they pass, the ones that deal with are just good at hiding from you to save the heartache.

So sorry to hear your sad news.  When we losta dog many years a go to an accident I kept her in the house on her beanbag and covered until the next day when my brother took her to be buried.  like you i didn't like the thought of them being away from us or cold. xx

Thinking of you,rest in peace Ben.

Sheila xx

I am so sorry for you, and weeping here.  I know that you are in pain, but you have taken Ben's pain, which is the last kindness we can give.

RIP precious boy.