
You know the times when you wake up, and wish you could go somewhere different? Remake yourself? I have a computer desktop them of the UK, and every 15 minutes it changes pictures. It shows rolling hills, rivers, and a lovely street with really pretty homes. It shows fall photos, of lovely colours. It looks so peaceful, that you could melt into the background, and just be in peace.
Where I live, it does have green grass, and trees. But it is also very run down. The houses are old, which can be pretty if they are taken care of, but thats not the case. There is no where that you can go to escape. Escape into a scene, where you can just be.
And when you want to go out, there is nothing but run down, horrible bars. Bars that you get drugged at. Its almost a given to have something slipped into your drink.
I do think a lot of it is because of what has gone on recently, I got hurt at work, and then had to give up my place. I had independance and then it was taken away. Thats been really hard on me.
You are all very right, when saying I should come visit first. I did have a trip planned to come over for the Scotland Kennel Club dog show, the end of august last year. I had everything saved up, priced out, etc. Travel, accomidations, everything was taken care of. All I had to do was book the plane ticket. Then Reba broke her leg. Of course I am not blaming her for me having to cancel my trip. Reba is a very special dog. Love her to bits, and would go broke for her again. But it did eat up what I had saved and I still owe on the vet bills from her broken leg.
So I think from here on in, I am just gonna day dream until I can save up enough to come visit the UK for a couple weeks. See what it is all like. See if I can even get used to it LOL.
Thanks CD! <3