
Hi Mandy
my dog didn't go through what Bella has so no advice really but my experience:-
In July 96 my 5 year old dog had a fit. We'd just got back from a show & it had been a long hot journey home so I thought it might be connected to heatstroke. Over the next few days he had more fits. Some were worse than others & he was very disorientated afterwards, circling, crying, trying to run then crashing into things. I couldn't comfort him as he wasn't aware of me, (I think their sight can go temporarily) I just had to stand back, not wanting to believe what I was seeing. My (then) vet got me a referal to see a specialist & they took him somewhere else for an MRI scan. It was important to know the cause as he had been used at stud, & we had his 5 week old pups at home. The MRI showed a tumour behind the sinus, apparently rare, it was benign but still growing & even if it was operated on (tricky & at great expense) would've grown back, possibly giving him only a few months extra. Most of the fits were early morning before he woke up but some were during the day & he would even have minor ones still standing. A lot of the time he would take himself off under a bush, I guess he had the equivalent of a major headache. I was warned that he might turn on me, but he was always an absolute gentleman with me & the other dogs which made it even worse. The vet seemed out of his depth with this condition & although he was started on Phenbarbitone he gave my dog other medication. To be fair I think I was just impatient for something, anything to work for him. I wrote in another thread it took 2 TERRIBLE weeks for the meds to kick in during which time he was staggering around & could barely walk but then miraculously he was back to 'normal' (albeit for a short time) until the fits broke through again as the tumour grew.
I knew he was on borrowed time, I just couldn't bear the thought of him suffering, it was making me feel really ill, so just after his birthday in September he was PTS after a very difficult day. A terrible waste of a beautiful dog. I kept a diary of the number & duration of fits/meds etc & what he was like the rest of the time & it
still upsets me to read it. Like you I felt totally helpless and numb. The only thing that kept me going was having his pups to go on with. I kept a dog & a bitch, they lived til 9 & 12 & his last daughter died in December at 13 so he left a great legacy.
Its horrible to feel so helpless when our dogs are ill. I do feel for you, & will be thinking of you both.