Sorry, I am just having the most horrendous time at the moment and needed to tell someone.... :(

To start the fence got damaged in the wind, including the gate the neighbour uses, and I will be expected to repair it even though it's meant to be a shared responsibility because she refuses to take any responsibility for anything, and I'm just witing for her to have a go at me. Then on Monday Dorain was attcked by a loose Staffie and bitten on the leg, I was just getting him more relaxed about other dogs after previous attacks (has taken a LONG time) and he is going to be stressed to bits again.   I just felt dreadful because he held his leg up and cried, a sort of confused sad whimper, and I feel dreadful for not being able to protect him. :( :( Tuesday I took the car in and discovered all the parts and everyhting it needed in the service came to over £800. I also got a letter from the mortagge company (come to end of deal adn I'm swopping company) to tell me redemption costs were over £2000... On Wednesday I was meant to be getting the car back after repairs as I needed it to get to hospital for my gastroscopy, but it got stuck on the ramp at the garage, which caused a morning of panic, just got it back in time.

Then the gastroscopy was horrendous, they couldn't do it in the end as I swallowed the scope, but just couldn't stop retching, so they couldn't see anything, have said i will have to go back to have it done under sedatuion but that means I need to have someone with me, don't know who. Because my little brother has gone to live with his dad my mother is living half the week in one place and half the week in another and works full time so doesn't really have time, and she's already had a fair bit of time off this year as my granny was diagnosed with kidney cancer and had an op to remove it so she had time off to look after her. TBH I haven't said anything to her anyway because there was enough to worry about with my gran. And I'm not going to be able to go to get it done again for ages anyway. But I don't know how much longer I can take feeling ill like this, I've been feeling grotty for months, apparently they don't think it's serious but I'm just so exhausted all the time I can't do anything and I'm starting to think I'll never feel any different.

Then today Duibh got his leg reXrayed and his op's failed again, I got a parking ticket while in the vets as I was parked on time limited parking but didn't realise, adn on the way back someone drove past over the white line and smashed my wing mirror, and didn't stop... :( :( :( :(

Please tell me things can only get better, because i don't know how much more of this I can take, I just keep crying which upsets the dogs.

Thanks for listening.

Terry x

Poor you Terry - you really are having a tough time at the moment.  I'm sure it can only get better - put all these things in order of importance - take a deep breath and then tackle them one by one.

More importantly have a really early night get a good sleep and you might be able to think more clearly tomorrow.

Hope you feel better in the morning

Maxine  :)

Terry, you poor soul......life really is so hard at times and all seems to go against you. Certainly seems to be dumping on you at the moment.
You can't help crying so have some cyber hugs from me.......
You know what things will get better, give the dogs all the love and cuddles they can take. Let your mum do the worrying for your Gran, and try and think of somebody else who you could ask to go for the gastroscopy with you. Do you think you need to see the Dr. for all your sadness, sometimes life seems like it is a lot worse than it is, when you cant see any good things only the bad bits. Please try and see some bright bits ;-) there are always some. :-)
More hugs ((((  ))))
Karen :-)

It never rains but it pours and you seem to be getting a right drenching at the moment. Having a good cry is a good way of letting your feelings out and certainly not something to be ashamed of or to feel bad about. And if you are really tired it is so much harder to cope with things. Your dogs won't mind you having a good cry in front of them.

Is there a friend who could go with you for the hospital appointment? If not it might be worth asking at your local library for details of any volunteer centres near you as they often have people who are available to provide transport in private cars for people who need to attend hospitals and are unable to use public transport - which you wouldn't be able to do if you are undergoing sedation. They usually charge a mileage rate but the volunteer bureau could advise you more.

Perhaps your mum would be upset if you didn'task her if she would be available to go with you - I would not like to think that my own children wouldn't ask me to go with them if needed. I realise she has a lot on her plate at the moment but your children never stop being your children however old they are :) and mums have an amazing capacity to expand and be there for everyone :D

Life can be quite overwhelming at times and difficult to cope with but it also has a huge amount of good things in it as well - not always easy to see them when you are not feeling yourself but they areout there just waiting for you to catch sight of them.

Have had a quick look at your website and, apart from your beautiful dogs of course :), there are all those beautiful mountains still waiting for you :) - lots of unfinished business for the future :)

Ooooh Sweetheart.... :(
C'mon Quick!! *Frantically raises the shutters and unlocks the front door*
Come on in!! *Pulls up big comfy chair* Sit thee down Lass...
*shouts to assistant chocolatier* "Lori!!Lori!! quick fire up the chocolate fondue, and dont skimp on them wee marshmallows on sticks! grab the Green&Blacks too!" :P
there..... :)
*Thrusts BIG mug of hot choccy with whipped cream..and a Huuuuuge splosh of Baileys! into Terry's hand* :D
{{{{{{Colossal Hugs}}}}}}}}}}
Life can be a nasty pasty at times knock the wind out of us and leave us flat on the floor.....but........The power of the collective Champdogs hugs (& chocolate ;)) is an infinately more powerful force :D..and when you've got that on your side, aint nothing going to be able to keep you down for long ;) ;)
we're all here for you xxxxxxxx
{{more hugs}}} x
(where's Lori with that chocolate???...honestly you cant get the staff these days!! :D ...whats that munching noise?? ;) :D)

Oh Terry, I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. It happens all at once so we have good times and bad times instead of bad all the time. Now come have a cuddle on HG's chair and fill yourself with CD strength and the choccie. Seriously, no matter how bad it gets you keep waking up. When I've been through really rough times that thought fills me with strength, that no matter what happens you can carry on. It's powerful my dear. You are WonderWoman! You will get through this. :)

Oi, HG, you just wait til you have a puppy and we'll see how much keyboard time you get. :-D Accusing me of slurp eating all the munch, hmppff chocolate. Now lets get this sled down to Terry - she's in need!!

I can't better HG's response  :) so will just say I hope things get better soon and I really feel for you.

Terry, I'm so sorry things are going so pear shaped for you just now - not sure what help or advice to offer, just remember you are now riding the storm and that in time it will subside :)

I can so imagine the scene where your boy was crying with his leg held up, that would cut me up so much. We want to protect them and feel so bad when we can't. Does the staffie live near or was he one you'd never seen before?

Sorry the gastroscopy was difficult - at least now you know what it is like, and perhaps it won't seem so scarey the next time round. I tend to echo whoever it was (sorry haven't got the post in front of me) who said maybe consider telling your mum - mum's usually want to be there for their children :)

Sending lots of hugs to you and to your dogs :)

Lindsay
xx

Terry I think it's unusal not to have sedation for the procedure you mentioned, my OH has had this a few times and always sedated!  No wonder it was so awful for you :(

Tell your Mum, she would want to help, that's what Mum's do, I'd be so upset if my daughters didn't ask me to help out when they needed it, (29 & 33 years old)  I know you think she has a lot on her plate but believe me her children are the most important thing to any Mum :)

Don't let things like the parking ticket and the smashed mirror bother you, I know it feels as though everything is going wrong but honestly they are not worth the worry :rolleyes:

If you need any info on the patella op just pm me!

Hope you can relax over the weekend :)

Take care
Maria x

I've only just read this thread and oh dear poor you. Keep your chin up. One day the sun will shine and all these problems will be in the past. Sometimes, it seems that the whole world is against you and nobody cares. We're all familiar with these feelings and they do pass. Treat yourself by going to town, have a slow mooch around the shops, buy something indulgent and not needed. Then have a nice lunch in a nice pub or cafe. Works for me every time. Hope things get better soon.