As some of you may know I start my new job soon :).  It was supposed to be today so I got childminders sorted out, OH sorted out with his new routine etc but last night my boss has delayed things by a week so dont actually start until next week, which is better for me BUT as I had childminders sorted out my OH and I talked things through last night and decided that this week would be a dry run so to speak as the minders had been booked so would have to pay them something regardless.

Well this morning getting the girls ready for school couldn't have gone much worse :(.  I started shouting at them because things weren't being done and felt guilty so ended up in tears.  Then just a few mins ago I dropped my son off at his childminders and he walked straight in, without waiting for me to go in as well so I decided that as he was happy that I wouldn't make a big thing of it and left.  I have just got home and I am in tears again :(.  Is it normal to feel like this?  I am a very emotional person:rolleyes: and I am always the one crying on sports day, navitities and their first days at school etc but today I feel really guilty for leaving them.  I'm worrying that my son would have turned round and realised that I wasn't following him and how he would feel and how the girls are doing at school knowing that I won't for the first time ever be at home after school.  I never had a problem with going to work before as it was from 5 till 8 and their dad was home then but this is something different and I just feel really unsettled.  Has anyone else ever felt like this before?
Kerri x

I am like it all the time LOL. My life is one big hormonal rollercoaster :D

Ring the childminders and check if your son is OK - he will be, he'll be playing and not thinking of his upset mum at all! And go get a coffee and some cake. You'll feel much better :)

Gosh Kerri yes!  When I dropped my 6m old off at the nursery over 9 years ago I sobbed my little heart out every day that week - but gradually the new routine set in and it became easier especially when going to pick up I could see what a great time she was having.  Over the years they used to grumble when I picked them up and gettign them out of nursery was a real struggle - guess they did have a good time!

Other times when my youngest started school we used to wave as I walked past the window - one day someone stopped to talk to me and I then just went to my car forgetting to wave - i felt dreadful all day because of that - the teacher was great when I picked them up though and said she just said silly mummy forgot to wave today.

My two go to after school club a couple of days and picking up from there is also a struggle takes me 15mins some days to drag them home!!! :) - I'm sure you son will be the same!  Makes you feel happy and sad at the same time!!!

You will all get used to the routine - just takes some adjusting.  Take it easy and try and be calm as you can - everything will work out once everyone is used to the new routine I'm sure.  all the best,

Rach

Opps just read my post through again and I meant to say nativities not navitities !!! LOL  My OH would be interested if they were called that LOL.
Just spoken to the childminder and she said he was fine, not missing me at all and she apparently could tell from my face that I was upset and was suprised I lasted this long before ringing!! LOL  (only been an hour!)  I suppose I also feel guilty because I am not actually doing anything but as we would have had to pay the childminder anyway this week I just thought it would be a good idea to get the children used to the new routine and I suppose me get over the tears etc before I do actually start work!  At least next week, the girls will be on summer holidays so I will actually see them more. :P

Im gonna cry my big fat eyes out when Damian starts nursery in september! And whats worse, il still be pregnant and hormonal!! :( :(

I cant even leave him with anyone other than my mum! :(

Im trying not to think about it at the mo though :)