
poor Esme--I know how you feel. I hand reared a chick last summer--her mother was determined to kill her. My neighbour's children named her Fluffy Michelle :) and she was as tame as anything.
Sadly FM took poorly three weeks ago and I tried to convince myself that she might get better--I handfed her, made sure she was comfortable etc, but one day when I went into the pen she had a very sad and defeated look in her eyes and she could no longer walk at all. That was when I knew I had to let her go and it was all the harder because I had to do it myself, she would have been totally traumatised by a trip to the vet.
Good to know so many out there love their birds :)--I have a couple of dozen but every one is special (even the meanies).