I have re-found CD again! After a very long time I might add, and have been reading your posts. I'd forgotten how helpful and lovely you all are and I have missed you!
Bit of an update, we have been through some very difficult times (emotionally and financially) and to be honest I cut myself off from many many people as I just couldnt face keeping up with threads or life outside the immediate are in general. But things are looking up and so I am back.........
We have just the 2 dogs now, (black labs) as Eddie had to be pts last year, Feb 6th. He was like Jekyll and Hyde, switching from adorable little boy to unrecognisable. He was getting more and more dog aggresive, the 2 girls were scared of him, actually 1 was terrified of him, and I tried absolutely everything I could. When it came to a point where I could not trust him with people I knew (who had small babies) that was it. He had been that way for a while but was getting worse and we think it was because when his litter tried to kill him (we rescued him) and with all the snarling and fighting he had brain damage.
The vet was wonderful and we talked and she said I was doing the right thing. Certainly didnt feel it at the time!!! and I still feel guilty even now, but I held him in my arms as he went and he looked into my eyes and finally completely relaxed. His ashes are in an urn in the living room.
Anyway didnt mean my initial post to be doom and gloom! Since then I have been doing a lot of mountain walking with friends and the labs, and have even lost some weight.
Work is fine, family is now fine and we are getting there!
Take care
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